How old do I act?

You Act Like You Are 23 Years Old

You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel like an adult, and you're optimistic about life. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. You're still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up. The world is full of possibilities, and you can't wait to explore many of them.

What Age Do You Act?

Horrible, no good, very bad day!

Words cannot even describe the horror that was today. First we woke up late, The girls missed their bus to head start, then Jolene is like SUPER grouchy and I don't know why, I don't get a chance to really ask her whats wrong until all the kids are gone. She tells me she has a horrible pain in her neck and that she can't turn her head much either way. She takes some ibuprofen and we both lay back down for an hour. When she wakes up her hands are all swollen! So the girls get home from school and Jolene heads to the ER. I want to go with her but we can't find anyone to watch the girls on such short notice.

In the meantime daycare kid mom drops off her kids with no notice! Tells me both she and her dh have to work until close (they are both bartenders) So now I have a crabby one year old to deal with who needed a nap. I go to lay down with her to get her to sleep upstairs in my room, put on Dora for the girls and think for some reason they will sit and watch it. WRONG oh so WRONG.

When I came back downstairs after about 15 minutes, I discovered the girls in the BOYS bedroom. They had poured two big bags of cereal on the floor and two two liter bottles of pop, and then just for added flavor they poured some instant mashed potatoes into the mix. I totally lost it! It was 2:45 pm and I had the neihbor bringing her kids over for me to watch while she picked up all our older kids from school. I swept everything into a large pile in the hallway and covered it with one of the blankets they had soiled.

Jolene calls from the hospital and tells me there is something wrong with the nerves in her neck and that they gave her a shot for pain, plus pain pills and muscle relaxers to take home, but they are waiting to release her to see how the pain med works.

She gets home right before all the other kids do, in really bad shape! The meds they gave her didnt really help and she goes to lay down ofcourse. So now I am left with 8 kids and no help, the baby is crying and following me around having been woke up from her nap by my yelling at the girls mess making :(. Everyone is jumping around acting like fucking animals! They tear the plastic covers off the mattereses in the boys room, they dump a million toys all over, everyone is hungry and wants a snack, Elijah wants to read me a book, Isaiah wants help with his homework, Nolan needs 15 dimes for his math, and on and on and on. I deal the best I can with all this through dinner time, bath time, bed time and now here I sit with a glass of wine trying to wind down.

I so hope Jolene is better tomorrow!

How Quinn Got her Groove Back....

If anyone knows the plot to this story could you please let me know? I am having trouble writing even the outline to it! My last post I was all amped up about the things I was going to get done, ect ect. and here I sit almost two weeks later in the same damn position. It just seems like everytime I want to exercising I am needed somewhere else or someone is taking up the TV or DVD player, there is no healthy food in the house or there is no money to buy more healthy food is, or I just want to eat what I want to eat.

We have made progress on getting the house and kids more organized. We had made this thing on the wall this summer where we put up velcro strips on the wall in the living room and made stickers with everyones name on them and schedules and activities we all do and stuff trying to get them to more activly participate in a good schedule. Well the kids were into for about ummm 2 minutes? So these things and velcro strips on our wall pretty much just sat there for months making our living room look more like a daycare. Well the other day, I was juggling through all the kids winter wear after they got home from school trying to get the matches together so it wouldnt be a nightmare looking for them the next time they went outside. Somehow a glove got stuck on one of the empty velcro spots! Instantly I saw the value in this and ripped off all the little stickers and proceded hang up all the hats and gloves in on the velcro slips! It is working so awesome, each day the kids come home and stick their stuff on the strips to hang and dry. Everything so far has stuck and not fallen down and the kids think mommy is pretty smart! :P


So speaking of the kids. We have had some adventures here over the last couple weeks! Nolan turned 8 on the 20th! I can't believe how fast our kids are growing up. We had a birthday party at home and invited the neighbor kids over. Fun was had by all and he got some pretty neat gifts for our budget being so crunched as it is right now, thank you Toys R Us clearance! We even got him the HIDEOUSLY ugly transformer cake he was longing for, I wanted to puke just looking at its brightly colored sickeningly sugary concoction that is a hellmart (walmart) birthday cake.


Elijah is not doing well in school again. Everyday is a bad day and its really really been stressing me out. I don't know what to do to help him anymore! On a good note he has been reading chapter books to me or Jolene every night before bed, he is SUCH a good reader and its one of the pleasant moments in my day to listen to him, even though its very hard with Journee looming close asking for boobies constantly and saying she wants to read HER books. So we usually start out like this....


Then it turns into this...


And eventually after much frustration on my part...


They look so sweet sleeping together, I am almost tricked into believing they might be angelic, especially when Journee wakes up in the middle of the night and crawls into my arms looking like this...


She is still my baby, and I am still her everything, and I like that feeling of being needed SO much. And yet, still is still very much her own little diva person and oh so beautiful...



There is also another little bitty light in my life. Her name is Isarae and she is almost 5 months old. She is my neice and a little bundle of superdiva little girl. She is exclusivly breastfed and goes to school with her mommy(my sixteen year old sister!) everyday. Shes just starting to really reach for everything as you can see here...




I will sign off on that happy note. I hope you realize that the titles of my posts really have nothing to do with what I may or may not write about! I also hope you read anyway and don't mind :)

Getting back in the Groove

I am working really hard to get back on a regular schedule and continue with my new healthy lifestyle. I meant to start exercising on Monday and then all week long as well, but I've been painting for the landlord the last two days and I am so sore!

We are painting this beautiful 4 bedroom 2 bath house that he has for sale but not for rent :( We have a nice house now but it is really small for all of us and doesn't have a dining room which drives me crazy because I miss having family dinners at the table! I keep wishing something with the sale will fall through and we will be able to rent that house. Its only 100 dollars more than we are paying now and it has so much MORE! Fenced back yard, Dining room, 4 large bedrooms, Living room, Den with a fireplace! 2 bathrooms raised back porch, two car garage and so much more. Its like my dream house lol. I can dream right?

I like working, but not physical toiling LOL. I am more of an intellectual person, a people person, I need to feel like I am making a difference in the world when I am working otherwise it is just not fun for me! Like painting that house, I don't feel like I am doing anything special except making money, the people who buy it might not even like the color and repaint it right away. So anyway, I want to work, full time even, I feel like I am such a better mom when I am away from these kids for awhile.

Tonight I read a ton of books with Elijah and Journee and actually wasn't irritated when they kept begging for more! I just don't think I am made up to be constantly around and taking care of kids. I love them so much, but they really stress me OUT and the longer I am with them the worse it gets! So I just want to get my tooth fixed and find a good job that I will like, maybe even love?? That has more hours than the Diversity Council offers (ofcourse I will still continue there as well, I love it!) and dependable pay.

I am also hoping that I can go back to college this fall! I am pretty sure I am going to have enough in my tax return this year to totally pay off my student loan and once that happens I can get another Pell grant and go back. I want to go for social work. This time I am going to be smart about it and go for something I will actually like doing and be good at. I don't know what I was ever thinking trying to be a nurse! LOL Journee and Chloe will be in full day kindergarten next year so I will have lots of free time in the day, unless I find that great full time job, and then I will look into night or weekend classes or maybe even online classes. We all know I am great at doing things on the computer! heheh

Elijah is doing great in school so far this week. I am THRILLED. I think the concerta really helps him! He has had good days ever since he started it on friday. I don't want to jinx myself but I really think this could be exactly what he needed to help him get through the day at school. He has also been good at home and my sweet Elijah again!

Isaiah went back to the eye doctor today, he is soooo farsighted! I wonder if the lithium is contributing to this as well. So his new glasses will be in a week or two. Jolene took him to the appointment this morning so I haven't seen the frames yet, I hope they are cute!

Something keeps pulling me under,
down down in the deep dark waters
I hold my breath, I struggle and kick
my feet, desperately trying to get back
to the light, to the air, to my rescuer
I am so sure is there.

I make it to the surface, fighting
that terrible force. I look toward
the sun but the sky is overcast with
rolling black clouds glowering at me.
Go back in the deep dark water
they say its safer there, you'll never
make it up here anyway, eventually
I will kill you, theres nothing left for you
to do.

2 moms, 6 kids, 1 Cat.....

And one miniature wiener dog!


Meet Stanley.


Hes one year old. We adopted him. I used to think these dogs were so ugly and really the way they are made up IS weird. But he is actually really cute if you squint LOL! I have to say I never thought I would own a dog who has to wear a coat outside to go potty...



He also enjoys wearing a camo muscle shirt in the house! We won't be sending him to war, don't worry!




The kids love him, he loves them too.

Most of the time...